ABOUT
I'M SARAH,
a soulworker walking through collective self-abuse towards my individual version of Self-Love every day.
.
MY PATH
Â
Near death experience
While still in my mother’s womb I had a near death experience. My siblings died and I wanted to leave this world with them before even entering it. My birth to me felt like a burial. In hindsight it is therefore no suprise that the dead chose me as a channel. Death has been with me since the very beginning.
Failing the system
My wish to make the world a better place has brought me to teaching. Next to the abuse that happened in my family, it was through my former teachers that I experienced (sexual) abuse. As a „teacher“ I tried my best not to abuse my power in any way, but instead to empower my „students“. However, the energy of angst and control in schools was always suffocating to me, so that I retired from teaching when I was 39. Ironically the only times I felt safe was when I taught in prison – the respect, gratitude and brotherhood I felt from the inmates was priceless. Not being able to transform the system from within did feel like a failure at first.
Male Transitioning
One of the decisions I made during my first marriage was to transition from cis-woman to trans-man. The experience to walk this earth as a „man“ and be treated as one will always be one of the richest and most mindblowing experiences of my life. And it made me realise how complex the power struggle between all genders – on this planet and in myself – still is and that it needs my input to transmit higher consciousness, especially when it comes to „gender“ and „sexuality“.
Â
Hosting erotic energy
The changes that testosterone had on me as a (sexual) being have finally lead me to sexological bodywork. Through sexological bodywork I learned how to create safety and most of all freedom in my sex life for the first time ever. Through tantric and kinky teachings I reconnected not only with my past lives as temple host:ess, but first of all re-found self-confidence in expressing my dark masculine and feminine in a more healthy and safe enough way.
Integrating the feminine
After calling back and integrating all aspects of the spectrum inside of me – from male to female and from light to dark – I was free to detransition into my queer female body. This was definitely not the easiest, but the truest choice for me. Life in a (white) male body comes with so many privileges (- the few hateful projections of white middle-aged female bodies set aside). However my mission in this life is to consciously act from this collectively suppressed and objectified female body – as absurd as it feels from my soul’s perspective.
Serving dead souls
When living in a community set on a former SS training ground I was visited by dead souls more vividly than ever before. This is why in 2022 I decided to also professionally train as a channeling medium and energy healer to officially (very German :)) re-learn how to communicate and connect with dead souls and other star beings on terms that were healthy for me. During the re-training I quickly realised that souls would chose my channel to deliver messages before leaving for another dimension. Whereas I had been overwhelmed so many years of my life, I finally feel grateful and honoured to serve in that way.
